Finally I went to go see my doctor, and we did a TON of tests. Blood, sonograms, MRI, colonoscopy, and poked and poked. After a close investigation the doctor did find a couple of things, but nothing scary like cancer or a tumor. The problems he did find should be helped with a life style change.
At that time I made a decision that I was done with living the way I was living in terms of the food I eat, and the low commitment to excise that I had.
I set some goals, and created a vision of who I want to be. That vision has evolved a bit on the go as I learn more about myself, and will probably continue to evolve as I age. Every day for the last eight months my vision of who I am going to be has motivated me to get my butt out of bed, and guided my decisions about what I eat.
Why I tell you this is because, the great part is that it's not hard at all. I have loved it. There is no hardship because I believe in something bigger for myself. I am headed someplace great, and I know I am going to get there. I am giving myself a much better life, and hopefully a much more enjoyable future. I have a clear and compelling vision of who I'm going to be (this time) and that has made all of the difference. Without that vision I know nothing would have changed.
FYI my lifestyle (I'm not on a diet) does not include running marathons, or never eating things I enjoy. It's about doing the right things for myself when I know I should, and enjoying that. Still have a ways to go, but I'm loving every step.